HAPPY BIRTHDAY CT!

See you next block today :D

bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad day.

Period is making me very emo, very unhappy, very very down. I want my hair to dry right away so I can fall deep asleep like now to escape from this dark mind the hormones have caused. Spongey, what are you doing?

It's size 34! totally my size or a lil bigger. And the encouraging thing is this is the shoe shop I can frequent in future for size 34 not-too-cliched shoes, yay to that. Charles & Keith is overrated and they are everywhere seriously. Looking for a pair of shoes is easy here but looking for pair of unique looking shoes is tedious because you see the same string of shoe shops everywhere in different malls and it's annoying, really. Why are we restricted to just this gang of shoe shops? .>(

Sleeping never feels enough these days. Must I sleep an 8hours straight to not feel tired:/ The days pass so quickly right after you finish work. My consolation is coming this friday - my payday. R says we are going to shop when he gets his pay as well; I went omg. But I really like the idea. No actually, I love the idea am so totally enthralled <3

I am so going to paint this on some kid's face:


I got a free haircut today but I am so sad because any trimming would make your hair look shorter. It seems forever for rachel to obtain long hair.

Good night.

And I get the feeling I probably never will in the next few days despite him being this close to us in the same island. I dropped by Swissotel after work today supposedly in wait for a response from somebody that never came as well as trying out my luck that I might just bump into Gackt! It wasn't exactly fruitless I came across a huge bunch of Dears and even that felt dream-like for they were the evidence of Gackt's presence. They were all wearing identity tags with Gackt's photo on the other side. I managed to converse with some Dears with my lousy Japanese and occasional addition of English. They were kind enough to share with me that the private live was to be held at 18:00 on Saturday but they do not know of the location. Awww :(

I would be glad enough to catch a glimpse of him, just a glimpse! Have him walk pass me and allow me to enjoy that short moment of disbelief and bliss. This island is seriously too deprived from the Japanese music scene. I've always yearn that any artiste from Japan could show a little more attention to our small market and boom! Gackt is in Singapore but in the most confidential state ever that only his Japanese Dear fans can enjoy. How very sad we are. Mourns.

Good Night :(

Happy birthday to Mom and Eve <3

Family dinners are nice. I realized Dad has aged alot he's gotten lesser hair. How is it that I only realized it now? Only today I took a good look at my parents and brothers and realized how much time has gone and how much we have grown to be what we are now. Dad and Mom need to be pampered more often.

I'm off tomorrow! Somebody ask me out D:

And I'm finally proud of it.



I lived my childhood and adolescence trying to hide my forehead with short bangs. People used to comment 'why the short bangs? It looks kiddish/geeky/anything uncool and when it became fashionable as I got older, everybody decided to have short bangs xO !@$%%^$#$! I started to unveil bit by bit only at age 18 when I guess I just needed something new. And so back to my protruding forehead which used to be more prominent when I was younger earned me the nicktolaughat The Lohan Fish. Somehow it got to look more normal as I get bigger.

But all is good now because I love my forehead just like how I love bouncy messy hair and big shirts. :D

Don't even think about it. It's bad bad bad to keep imagining things.

I went to the cobbler and locksmith today during lunch, they were two old men.I was told to come back an hour later by the locksmith in a nonchalant kind of attitude so I made my way to the cobbler which he happened to be walking away to the hawker slowly and I waited and waited wondering when will he ever come back with his pace till I was getting impatient. And then he appeared a distance away, smiling and waving indicating that he's coming. He walked really slowly with his skinny body holding a coffee in one hand and when I saw that god I felt overwhelmed by this sink in my chest. Maybe it was shame, maybe it was sympathy. But I felt so thankful he'd be the one to fix my spoiled shoes. And then I went back to the locksmith, he was playing chinese pop with an antique radio and he attended to me this time. He could only hear me when I spoke very loudly. He made me a pair of blue and green keys (yay) and answered in a sorry & smiley tone that he didn't have change for 50bucks. They had this similar kind of bare-tooth smile. I went on to buy some honeydew juice for some change and returned. There - my keys were ready. And I paid a worthy 6 bucks for his hard work if you could imagine, these old man dragging their load of stuffs to the middle of the street under the hot sun. You just want to seek their service even if they appeared cranky at first, they so made my day.

I worked two face painting jobs today had two baked potatoes & sirloin steak for dinner it was yummy. The weather was so chilly today I love it. *I demand the scorching sun to stay away tomorrow too* What exactly is the main point of journaling today. It was Lyddie's Wedding yesterday I have the pictures the pictures with me but they are so big there's no photoshop in this pc I can't resize I can't edit. Boohoo I really wanna show them Lyddie was gorgeous queen of the night but uploading fifteen mega big photos will take forever. Why does Paint not have resizing feature? Because Paint suck.

My hair is orangecopperbrownblackash right now I think it's a freaking cool colour mix for hair, sadly I really don't think my face pull off this awesome colour that well. I'm thinking of my desired ashgreybrown hair again.


















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I managed to upload one picture to LJ successfully yay!


Here's Queen Lyddie and her humble chamber maid escorting her long dress &a very candid chia hsien. Haha x) It was a really happy night of joy with my most sincere well wishes for this cutey couple and the nostalgic primary school gathering. I can't believe Mrs Tang, Ms Gwei and Ms Chia were there the last time I ever saw my pri sch teachers was 9 years ago?? Thank you Lydia. I hope you had a wonderful night after the wedding *heehee-haha*

from the tired day, wasted trip, some irritating matter that got manually deleted.  I felt so lonely when I was wandering around by myself at the mall; it's strange. I guess I'm just really uber worn out. But out of these dull matters, I scanned through my most recent folder and found two pictures that recalled some laughter and made me feel better:





hahahhaa...we totally burst out laughing when eve lifted the cute tent door and we saw animals inside.

Bye bye Shuan. We'll see you again in Dec. I wrote a bunch of crap (but they are funny to me!) in that card I hope you are entertained on the plane (if you remembered to read it). Yay I took picture of the best looking polaroid which you happily took it away without the thought of scanning for us. 



And Dear Grace, I hear you are so bored In Mexico which was goodness! A foreign land should be exciting isn't it? We really really hope and want you to enjoy yourself there to the fullest. Quit the negative thoughts; you can if you want to (: It's a once in a lifetime experience, make it fruitful & fulfilling <3  We look forward to hearing from you when you're back!


And I miss you R

GOOD NIGHT PEOPLE. TOMORROW WILL BE DREADFUL AT WORK BUT I WILL SLEEP TIGHT TONIGHT.

it's Natsu Matsuri again! After two years which I missed the last, no fret cause this year was sweet and really hot. I had simple bento and green tea with R on a green field; bought a lovely picnic-basket bag and I wished they had fireworks and goldfishes. Hopefully next year we will have enough yukatas for flamez to wear over ;DD



( purple&bluetoday )

R got me a black strawberry hairband!
little gifts like this makes me elated. x)



It's toooo easy to make me happy

I watched Nana movie again yesterday on scv. Somehow, I got really worked up at the scene Shoji ditched Nana for Sachiko. This sachiko...  the whiny voice, gentle little gestures like that's no rough ugly side of her at all and her omgpuppyeyesrapemenow!! ..kind of thing seem to make men so vulnerable. It's so difficult to like her being a girl myself and we really ought to feel threatened if your boy knows someone like that. Seriously do girls like Sachiko really exist? It gives me the shivers.

And I can't stop melting over Ren. Ren and Nana scenes make me scream WHY DON'T I HAVE A BATHTUB D:

*back to my pile of work*

We have a new refrigerator! It's so tall I'm not used to it but I'm excited. How often is that? I don't remember the last time we ever had a new fridge. After last night, I feel like I want to visit Japan again. This time round, it's going to be different. A whole lot more fun I feel, yes I feel it. Though it probably won't be till months..a year? Money don't come that easily anymore :/ But at t least I know I want to go there again, with R.  


my attempt at geisha lips *.*

I was wandering in the rain
Mask of life, feelin' insane
Swift and sudden fall from grace
Sunny days seem far away
Kremlin's shadow belittlin' me
Stalin's tomb won't let me be
On and on and on it came
Wish the rain would just let me

How does it feel (How does it feel)
How does it feel
How does it feel
When you're alone
And you're cold inside

Here abandoned in my fame
Armageddon of the brain
KGB was doggin' me
Take my name and just let me be
Then a begger boy called my name
Happy days will drown the pain
On and on and on it came
And again, and again, and again...
Take my name and just let me be

How does it feel (How does it feel)
How does it feel
How does it feel
How does it feel
How does it feel (How does it feel now)
How does it feel
How does it feel
When you're alone
And you're cold inside

Like stranger in Moscow
Lord have mercy
Like stranger in Moscow
Lord have mercy
We're talkin' danger
We're talkin' danger, baby
Like stranger in Moscow
We're talkin' danger
We're talkin' danger, baby
Like stranger in Moscow
I'm live in lonely
I'm live in lonely, baby
Stranger in Moscow

Written, produced by Michael Jackson

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Stranger is Moscow has been my all time fave MJ song though I was never able to make out everything he's singing till I decided to check the lyrics. That's when I read that Mj wrote this song at the peak of all the child abuse accusations that were made against him; he sings of his fall from grace to deep loneliness and on the verge of insanity.

I came home today with a new package in the mailbox and three more on my bed. It felt like xmas day. I have been encountering bad bad services so much shopping physically (which explains my recent online splurge) I'm almost boycotting PS. People say I have a face too tame. Too easy to bully. There's really something about me that needs to be built up to counter these bad attitude sales assistants.
My new camera was one of the packages and I'm baffled at how to operate it. There's an instruction manual but I really hate referring to one. >O I realized I realized that I am so impatient at browsing instruction manuals I would rather get my hands on and start experimenting and sometimes I spoil my brand new stuffs.

It's 10.36pm great and I'm not asleep as planned - my hair needs to dry quicker. I finally went to trim my hair with the intention to get rid of the damaged split ends but the hairstylist insisted 1/2 inch isn't enough to rid of the damaged ends I got convinced and I ended up with two inch shorter hair >: Bam. I'm back to square 1 (maybe 2). The journey to long hair is too slow. Did I mentioned I wanted ash brown hair? I want it so bad but 'm being patient at that - Not till your damaged hair gets treated reichel.

Bedtime.

To see your enemy in your dream, represents opposing ideas and contradictory attitudes. It also represents something that you are in denial about or someone whom you are rejecting. Enemies may also represent the enemies within yourself and the inner conflict you have with yourself. Consider the phrase "I am my own worse enemy.". Perhaps you are trying to rid yourself of those aspects of your character.

To dream that you are dealing with the enemies, represents a resolution to some inner conflict or waking life problem.
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Troubles. Ready to act. Awareness.
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To see a lake in your dream, signifies your emotional state of mind. You feel restricted or that you are unable to express your emotions freely. Alternatively, the lake may provide you with solace, security, and peace of mind. If the lake is clear and calm, then it symbolize your inner peace. If the lake is disturbed, then you may be going through some emotional turmoil.
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Some odd dream I had. Ever wonder if they mean something? Feel like they do, sometimes.